Selfie Insecurities & Striped Swoon Cardigan
I snapped photos of my scarf neck cardigan, finally! I’ve already shown a purple one I made for a friend, and a girl’s version I made for my daughter. I’ve professed my undying love for this sewing pattern, and what a wardrobe staple it is. And it’s a FREE pattern from Swoon! (Scroll to the bottom for pattern link & fabric details.)
There are 2 obstacles that kept me from sewing for myself more or blogging about it. One is the fact that I need every adjustment. FBA, DBA, broad shoulders, swayback, and flat butt. (Don’t be fooled darlings, these jeans are magical.) It seems like a new body fit issue pops up before I learn to adjust the last one! I talked about clothing fit issues before, so today lets talk about:
Months ago, while taking blog photos; I realized I was being a bully to myself. Here are some actual thoughts I thunk:
“Don’t turn your head. Nobody needs to see your witch nose.”
“Wow, 3 chins. Delete.”
“I’m not gaining weight. I’m just storing fat for the winter.”
“Are my boobs weird?”
“Open your eyes, you look stoned.”
“Okay, now you look like a serial killer. Just stop.”
“I hate my Medusa hair.”
This post isn’t intended to self depreciate or beg for compliments. I consider myself a confident woman, so why so much vanity when the camera comes out?
Then I caught myself scrolling my facebook feed, tongue-clicking the trashy makeup or booby profile pics. Bad parenting. Dating practices. Spending habits. The chick who posted 30 duck faces in a row. She must think she’s sooo cute.
Judgy McJudgerPants, here.
I make judgments, that’s why I was so critical of myself and how I look in photos. It sucks, because I really like to think of myself as a kind person. Did social media turn me into a jerk, or did I just not notice it before?
I’m not sure if judginess causes selfie insecurities, but there was a correlation in my case. I do know that my selfie phobia isn’t so bad since I’ve realized it was a choice I was making. People are going to judge us no matter what. Changing your outlook will not stop judgment. It will just make you above it.
(It’s still slightly awkward taking photos of myself. I must think I’m sooo cute. Just kidding.)
Why is it so much harder to control my thoughts than my words and actions? Anyone else struggle with that? And have you made a Swoon cardigan yet? You won’t regret it!
Pattern: Scarf Neck Cardigan by Swoon (free PDF!)
Fabric: lightweight striped knit from Girl Charlee
Alterations: none- but I haven’t hemmed the sleeves yet.